Wisdom through Timothy

I am probably pretty wierd to many people. If anyone attempted to figure me out, they would probably spend alot of time in vain because quite honestly "I have stopped trying to figure myself out." I have an awesome brother in Christ and friend that loves the blogs, but openly admit that the spelling and grammar is atroshious (I don't even know if that word is spelled correctly, lol). I think constantly. I am constantly looking forward and rarely looking backwards. I always ask myself this question "Am I making a difference for Christ, and am I changing daily?"
I love looking at the realtionship between Paul and Timothy. Paul was a seasoned 'Vet' who had made alot of mistakes in his quest to honor God. Timothy was a young man in whim had been raised by his God fearing mother and grandmother. When the two lives collided it is obvious to us today that Timothy wanted what Paul had to offer. Timothy wanted to know the Christ that Paul knew. No one can convince me that Timothy would have ever 'Come Up Against' Paul's teaching and beliefs. Some of yo may be reading this and think "That's totaly hypothetical Pete", but I believe that the scripture eludes that Timothy was Paul's right hand man. Timothy cherished Paul's wisdom and walk with Christ.
I have stated in other blog's that my son-in-law had asked me about 8 years ago where I had acquired my wisdom. He blurted out "Because of your age!" At this I stopped and thought before I spoke saying "Not because of my age, but through all of my failures." Timothy obviously accepted the fact that most of Paul's wisdom came from his failures, and Timothy respected that.
One of my constant thoughts is "How has the Church fallen so far away from the truth?" At 56 years old I can assure you all that I have made alot of mistakes over the years. I can say that that by remaining in the Word daily has been the greatest thing I have ever committed to. I also want to say that my 'Forgetting' what I had been taught has been monumental. My deepest regret today is that I had never sought out a truly 'Godly' man, and that I loved my opinion of what the scripture says more so than seeking a Paul. It really is a control issue. We desire to be right, and we desire to get recognition even for our belief's and theology. Unfortunately today I see younger men (15-40) that are seeking truth without Paul's in their lives. They gravitate to what they want to believe, and surround themselves with 'Like minded' people without the wisdom of men who have made the same mistakes. It seems that this is probably one of the reasons that 'Luke-warmness' is so rampant within the Church today and that it seems so many are looking for a different way instead of 'The Way.'
I implore anyone who reads this to seek out someone that is truly walking the walk, talking the talk, living a godly life, and could mentor you from a wisdom produced through their failures. In Philippians 3 Paul talks about his credentials, and also about his wisdom of his koweldge of God and religion. He laid it all down for the sake of knowing Christ. Did Timothy think Paul had some wisdom? Did Timothy have a tremendous amount of respect for Paul? When I was growing up we had a different respect than what I see today. We never questioned our elders, came up against them, or even questioned them. True respect has given way to freedom of belief, opinion and speech.
I will end with this "I do not wish upon anyone the mistakes that I have made in my life, about life, about God, about Jesus, or about the Word." Because of my failures I can say with assurance "Only a fool would attempt to run the race alone without seeking a Paul in their life."